Motherhood While Blogging…

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Ironic isn’t it? Motherhood is the best/worst event in a woman’s life all at the same time. It’s the moment where you mean nothing compared to the tiny human you’ve given birth to. You may agree to disagree but it’s a fact. Fear immediately sets in once your cervix has dilated 10cm or you’re getting prepped for that nice incision above your crotch, I’ve been through both. Once the baby is here everything else fades, you’re overwhelmed with joy and this tremendous amount of pride. Fast forward 10yrs and you’re calling your kid an assh*le or a little sh*t (in your head people, you know you’ve done it). Guess what… its all included!

I had just turned 18 when I gave birth to my son not knowing how I would care for him because I always depended on my parents for everything, I mean at that age what business did I have being pregnant? People back then frowned upon the idea of a young female having a child but it never really mattered to me. My father took it a lot better than my mother did but in the end they were always there for me. I whole heartedly think the birth of my son is the reason why I am who I am today. The idea of having something so vulnerable and pure exist in this world because of me is still terrifying but also the reason I wake up everyday. I love being a mother even though it is the toughest job I will ever face. I get that it is a way of life, we are here on this earth to procreate and the same cycle continues on and on. All I can do is try my best to be the best version of me for both of my children.


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Leeandro is my oldest, he will be 10 in August. He is such a loving, mature and kind boy. He is loved by many people from both sides of the family. His father and I have an awesome relationship, we are able to co-parent with no issues what so ever. He has stepbrothers/sister and the best step-mother I could ever ask for so we are very lucky! He’s a very artsy kid which he inherits from me and is going through a major Pokemon phase. Luckily I’m young enough that I know everything about Pokemon (I collected and played at tournaments when I was around that age) so we get to share that. The kid loves to get dressed up and it cracks me up. He’s known as the “boy with the bow tie” at school according to his teacher. Leeandro can be very hard on himself which can be good and bad at times but we reassure and encourage him all the time. I remember looking at him when we came home from the hospital and thinking how the hell am I going to take care of this tiny little baby, how would I even bathe him lol? Now he’s this big self-sufficient (to a certain extent of course) boy. He graduates next year and then it’s off to middle school : (

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Jelina is the baby of course, she will be 5 in September. She is such a smart little girl and is definitely an old soul. Her vocabulary is that of a 50yr old and her lisp is to die for! Just the other day she told me that she passed her “eye example” at school and I almost pissed my pants. She makes me think she is going to be some type of executive or girl-boss because of how adamant she can be about certain things. Now Jelly (her nickname) is a girly girl all the way, princesses, lip balm and Shopkins are her jam. She starts public school next year and (again one of those parenting instances) I’m terrified. She is genuinely the happiest child I’ve ever met, she is so innocent and oblivious to all the wrong in this world. Maybe it’s our fault for trying to keep that going for as long as we can before she steps out into the real world but we can’t help it. She always manages to always find a solution when problems arise which reassures me that she will be just fine. Jelina loves to color and do crafts which also makes me think she might have the “artsy” gene as well but only time will tell! She says she is going to be a vet when she grows up but can’t even deal with our neighbors dog running up to her, mind you she’s a tiny shitzu…

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My children are the reason I pursue everything I set my mind on, it’s vital for me to fight for them and their future. It sure isn’t easy and there isn’t a manual to follow but I can manage. That’s when I take “mommy time” to type up posts and film videos. This is my outlet to say and do as I please. Judgement will be everywhere you turn in life but it is up to you to decide what to do with it. I’ve had nothing but great experiences since starting this blog and I can’t thank you all enough, both old and new faces! I know bloggers sometimes get lost in translation and sort of loose sight once they go “big”. They loose touch with the real world, the everyday girl/boy who was there since day one. I can proudly say that this is the raw me and will always be me… I am a daughter, I am a sister, I am an aunt, I am a girlfriend, I am a mother….

 

Happy Mothers Day

xoxo

  • JOY SANDIFER

    Awesome post. Thanks for being so transparent and you!. Not to sound all fan girl, but you are definitely my favorite blogger. You said somethings that really hit home. Thats what blogging is all about being able to relate. Happy mother’s day my dear!

  • Tamira, I loved this so much. It’s beautiful to hear you talking about your kiddos with such love and excitement. You are wonderful my dear. Happy Mother’s Day.

  • Such a heartfelt post. Thank you for sharing such a special and important part of your life with your readers. Happy Mother’s Day.

  • Yari

    Love this post. Happy Mother’s Day Tamira.

  • Yari

    Love this post. Happy Mother’s Day Tamira.

  • lucy

    this is beautiful! so glad you decided to share that with all of us, you should be so proud and happy mothers day! 🙂

  • Sophie ♥

    What a gorgeous post. Happy Mother’s Day Tamira. xx

  • Sophie ♥

    What a gorgeous post. Happy Mother’s Day Tamira. xx

  • This post is beautiful. I’m currently 21 and pregnant and have been so worried at times that I’m too young and not ready but it’s honestly the best thing that’s ever happened to me. I can’t wait to have my beautiful baby in my arms 🙂

    Just Little Things xx

  • Loved reading this, Happy Mother’s Day to you and all the moms out there! xx

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  • Wow Tamira this is by far the best thing I have read in a long long time! It is so endearing how much you love your kids and how young you were when you gave birth and did so well all these years! I am just so amazed and also proud! I think you are role model in more ways than one and I am so happy I met you through your blog! Happy Mother’s Day darling and lots of love to your kids!

    Divya | TheConscienceFund

  • I started my blog after I had my daughter, to have a place where I could share my thoughts in a time where everything I used to be seemed to disappear behind the needs of a small child. It kept me sane and it helped me understand my changes. But I was 35 already when I had her, I cant even imagine how much change a child will bring into your life when you are only 18. All the best to you and your awesome children.

    Linda, Libra, Loca: Beauty, Baby and Backpacking

  • I absolutely LOVED reading this post! There’s something so special about bloggers’ more personal posts – you guys are sharing your lives with all of us online and though we tend to think of you as somewhat “untouchable,” posts like these make us realize that bloggers are really just as human as we are. Love you, girl xx

  • I absolutely LOVED reading this post! There’s something so special about bloggers’ more personal posts – you guys are sharing your lives with all of us online and though we tend to think of you as somewhat “untouchable,” posts like these make us realize that bloggers are really just as human as we are. Love you, girl xx

  • This is such a beautiful post. The love you have for your children shines through so much, and you sound to be such a brilliant mother. Now, at 17 I’m clearly not a mother, but I have a younger brother and I was so scared for him to move to high school, I guess you always want to protect the ones you love. Loved this.

    Isabelle | http://www.isabellekategm.co.uk

  • This is such a beautiful post. The love you have for your children shines through so much, and you sound to be such a brilliant mother. Now, at 17 I’m clearly not a mother, but I have a younger brother and I was so scared for him to move to high school, I guess you always want to protect the ones you love. Loved this.

    Isabelle | http://www.isabellekategm.co.uk

  • Elizee

    This post is so heart warming.

  • Isabel

    Thank you for being so honest! I never usually comment but I came across your blog and youtube videos and love your honestly and sense of humor! I had my son at 18 and I couldn’t agree with you more with everything you said about that experience. Thank you for posting this! Your daughter sounds beautiful just like your son! I always tell my son that he has all his life to be an adult so savor every moment of being a kid! Dont let them grow up so soon!

  • Isabel

    Thank you for being so honest! I never usually comment but I came across your blog and youtube videos and love your honestly and sense of humor! I had my son at 18 and I couldn’t agree with you more with everything you said about that experience. Thank you for posting this! Your daughter sounds beautiful just like your son! I always tell my son that he has all his life to be an adult so savor every moment of being a kid! Dont let them grow up so soon!